Coming Out: 6 Months Later

I have been out for 6 months now. It seems crazy. It feels like just yesterday that I was trying to convince myself there was no way I could be attracted to multiple genders let alone be multiple genders. I spent most of my life denying my sexuality and gender. I went along with what people wanted me to be and what wouldn't get me bullied. I have always had thoughts about other genders and they would always send me into panic moments because there could be no way that I could be bisexual. I was never taught anything about bisexuals. If I was taught anything about the LGBTQA+ community it was very minimum and it was about gays and lesbians. The only information I got about any other sexuality was from my peer group, which you can imagine was not the best. The one thing that sticks in my mind the most is I was always told that bisexuals are "greedy and just need to make up their minds". This really affected me as I was internally having thoughts about girls and boys like what am I? I'm not greedy, I can't be. As I got older I realized there was a lot more to the LGBTQA+ community and that it isn't what I heard about. I still didn't think about the possibility of me being gay but I stopped rejecting it. After awhile I was forced (by congress) into realizing that I am bisexual and I need to think about my sexuality. It was the day that congress passed the law that gay marriage is legal in all 50 states that I finally openly admitted to myself that I am bisexual. Now fast forward a few months and I have started to think about my gender more and more. One day I was thinking and it just came into my head. I am fluid. I don't have one gender and I don't have to. And it was within that same weekend that I came out to my family, friends and the world on this blog explaining my sexuality and gender. I have come such a far way from the scared teenager that followed what everyone wanted me to be into a very independent person.