I identify as gender fluid or gender queer.
Everyone's identity is defined to their own personalities and emotions. So today I want to explain what it means to me and my personality to be gender fluid.
I define gender fluidity as my gender changes from man to woman to genderless based on the time. The time ranges from month to week to day and even hourly.
Gender is different than sex. Sex is the physical being you are born as either female or male. Gender is broader than that. Gender can be simply man or woman for some people, but others feel their gender much more extensive. There are many different gender identities but today I am going to be focusing on gender fluid because that is how I identify.
For example one week I will feel like a woman. I will be happy with my body and want to show it off. I will want to wear make up and spend a good amount of time on my face, hair and nails. I will wear dresses and skirts and feel good in them.
And the next week I will feel like a man. I won't be happy with my body, I will want to hide my curves as much as I can. I will wear a binder to hide my breasts because they make me feel uncomfortable. I feel the most comfortable in baggy clothes and a fresh face. I feel bad about myself and my looks especially if I look very feminine.
And the next week I will feel genderless. I will feel indifferent about my body and what I wear. I will go on with my days without a thought, good or bad, about myself.
I don't act different or do things different and my personality does not change and it never will. My attitude about myself changes. This does not effect my personality, the decisions I make, or who I love and are attracted to.
If I did not tell people about this part of me, no one would ever know. I am out and proud. I do talk about it because I believe it is important for people to express themselves fully as how they feel as a person. Whether that is the same as the sex they are born or different.
The idea of being discriminated against because of my mind and my thoughts about myself makes me sick. I feel liberated and free when I get to express myself they way I feel. It is so important not only to me but to society to start excepting people for themselves, including their looks, personality and thoughts.
